Trust His love. This has been my mantra over the last few months, since my sister (in-law) was diagnosed with an acute & aggressive leukemia (Read my post, When the Ones You Love Suffer)
Jesus-followers like to encourage each other, especially in wilderness seasons, to trust Him. But, I am more captivated & comforted when I tell my soul not just to trust Him, but to trust His love for me.
His love that made a plan to redeem me before I was conceived. His love that did not spare His only son–mommas, His son–from being brutally crucified, let alone misunderstood, disrespected, and blasphemed while he walked this earth. His love that never fails, never gives up, never changes though I change, wander, and am, at times, faithless. This is a love that is worth trusting.
This is a love onto which I can hurl my sorrow, anger, confusion, fear, and angst.
When my sweet man went to bed earlier this week with a high fever the night before the grand opening of his business, and despite my intercession, woke up feeling crummy, I wanted to fix it. I wanted to carry it for him somehow, but after sending him off with prayer, vitamins, and hugs, I had to trust His love for Mark is deeper than my love for him.
Every single day when I kiss my big girl’s cheek and watch her walk into her school building, I have to trust His love for her is more powerful and sustaining than my love. Because, let’s be real, mommas, if I didn’t trust His love I would be at her school all day everday! (Read about learning to Trust Him with Them, here)
When the leukemia in my sister is stubborn and refuses to play nicely after three rounds of in-patient chemotherapy, when she is already weary and is kicked in the gut of the soul with delays and frightening numbers and percentages, I have a choice.
I can panic, or I can trust His love for her is capable, available, and at work.
My flesh wants to panic, it wants to run around finding solutions and alternatives, but my soul knows better.
Friends, the Word tells us that in this world we will have many troubles, so I know that many of you reading this morning are walking through your own fires & floods. Let me encourage you today, do not put your trust in doctors, security systems, supplements, researched plans; do not panic, either. Trust His “never-stopping, never-giving-up, always and forever love.”